Al-Fatihah

it's been three months since my late father died on 3rd march 2011...my mother has been struggling with her emotions but i believe that she is a strong-willed person. she was alone at home when she received news about him, we're all at our work places. i got a call from my sister telling that he fell at the railway station in Shenzen, china. he was on a business trip to Guangzhou to buy cottons to starts a business...unfortunately, he didn't make it even though i know that he was enthusiastic in doing his business. i had an argument with him before he fly to hong kong. he ordered me to buy him a ticket but i didn't want to, therefore he went to klia and bought himself a ticket. to me it is a waste of money because this business needs a lot of money. instead of going and spend all his money there, i preffered him to be at home due to his health condition. i realized that he was not fit anymore, he didn't show it but i do realized it whenever i saw him sleeping. he looked so TIRED! deep in my heart, i want to have a father-daughter conversation but i myself is too ego to do so!!! now, it's too late for me...he's gone forever and we will never see each other again. i couldn't see him moving around the house, making his curry puffs, messing the house with his tools, buying a lot of groceries, joking with my mother and the kitten...etc. now, i will never forget to recite Al-Fatihah for him. may he rest in peace. may ALLAH swt grants him with HIS love and care. Amin

AYAH...KAKAK MINTA MAAF DI ATAS SEGALANYA...

them

N,

she's my best friend in secondary. we lost contact right after SPM and met a couple of years then. lost contact again and we met again in 2009 at our friend's wedding. what a blissful. since then we contacting and updating about each others. once she'd been silent for months and i wonder was she in trouble? she WAS. by following the status in Facebook, i knew what had happened to her. she's in process to divorce and needed to clarify things upon it. the reason of it was her husband had coincidentally uttered phrases which made the tie became untie. the young male judge, upon hearing their case...he was sweating...looking regretful...and was being reluctant to give decision. and the talak jatuh satu! now, being a wife and husband again, she faces the same scenario...nothing much changed, according to her he's been acting normal (though he feels guilty...i hope!) i pray that she's able to be patient in facing the hardships! luv you N.



Aunt R,

my youngest and beloved aunt. the ex-husband...was full of jealousy and would demand her not to talk to other men in any condition (could it be for a semi-gov officer who needed to have discussions, meetings etc nowadays?) i know, in Islam wives must be blessed by husbands in anything they do and anywhere they go. this to ensure the wives would not be reprimanded by ALLAH taala of the wrongdoings/sins done. according to her, she'd followed his ridiculous demands even though it did create some unpleasant feelings in her colleagues and herself too. unfortunately after ten years of marriage, they got divorce because the husband claimed that she'd disloyal to him. at first, she couldn't accept this and cried nearly a month. she'd told me the reason he left; he claimed she was having an affair, and i consoled her to accept the it. on the second months, she was told by her ex-sister-in-law that her ex got married three weeks after they been divorce!!! what a great news! now, instead of crying her fate, she becomes tough and is trying to catch up her life again and again. i pray that my aunt will be able to live her life alone without the absence of a husband who (in future) will make her in depressed again. luv u aunt!




En AHT,

one of my matured male friends. we met in 2007. since then we texting each other and i was enjoying his messages, jokes, songs, advices etc. one thing i learnt about him was he seemed obsess in doing outdoor activities, lecturing and many more. in conclusion, he likes knowledge. last year, he'd sms me questions which i didn't understand why he sent it to me if he wanted to ask someone else? i answered him that he should ask the person, not me therefore he was silent for months. i told my other male friend about it, he laughed at me and said that the questions were meant for me! dang me! what a humpty dumpty me!!! oh my GOD! this was the second time! the first time he confessed his feeling, i was angry because to me this shouldn't happen. (but days later, i smiled and felt happy!!?...GOD what happened to me?). maybe it was my fault too, in every action i took which made him to fall in love again with someone else than her loving wife. i didn't have any intention in doing so. i do like him but i was admiring his fatherhood. to me, he's a good father to his children (compared to mine) and perhaps a good grandfather to his grandson too. others told me that he likes to flirt which i think it's true (sorry!) but i am certain that he's not as bad as they mentioned. due to his extrovert personality, people may have misunderstand on him. today, we meet, have a chat and watch a movie together. he looks pitiful (unhappy with current situation i guess) to me but i know that he is gaining his strength and able to live his life back to normal. i pray that you will find your true joy. luv u

*i quote u "U like me...but u don't want me..that the problem..hik hik hik"

i wonder

i wonder

are you one of my friends?

i wonder

do you think i am one of your friends?

i wonder

why did you ignore me after you succeed?

i wonder

do you still recognise me as your friend?

i wonder

were you taking advantage on me?

i wonder

should i hate you because of your ignorance?

i wonder

should i ignore you as you did to me?

i wonder

should i speak up to you

on the matter that you've forgotten?

i wonder

am i brave enough to speak up to you?

i wonder

what should i do when i see you,

where should i be if we are at the same place,

whom should i consult to talk about this,

how should i react if you approach me,

and when will you able to make things clear?

i wonder

a weekend in my kampung

saturday evening. off to banda hilir. my girl cousin wanted to ride trishaw in completing her assignment. it costed us: rm20 per trishaw...+ - 20mins. the trishaws were creatively and beautifully decorated with colourful (fake) flowers, radio (not all have), umbrella, not really comfy seat (but okay laa hehe demand) etc.

intan, me, dibah (the one who wanted the ride)



the front trishaw: intan and dibah hopped in (have radio and speaker. the music could be heard within 1km haha).
the second trishaw: am alone (no radio)

stopped by at the famous fountain and took some pic.
taken by dibah (aiyoh not centre la dibah)

we went home at 9 pm and headed to klebang. had dinner at a stall by the roadside. it was okay. the food was sedap gak and cheap. reached home at 12.30 pm. jalan x hengat donia :D

sunday. i planned to attend my bestie bro's wedding at kuala sg baru. last night, i asked my makcek (aunty) to accompany me unfortunately, she changed her mind the next morning. not to follow me because she wanted to take wind (ambek angin) near the fishing pond. aiyohh i had to go there alone...sigh. well, before departure to the wedding, i joined them lepaking...

the three ladies aka my aunties: busu, makcek, induk

man-in-charge of the pond sleep in here



this land used to be my late wai ibu (grandma) sawah padi (paddy fields). but my uncle had turned it into a fishing pond....sigh. no more leech and mud to play...or kobau berkubang potang2...


we called it 'bonda' aka small river. it is next to the fishing pond.
those years it had more water running in but nowadays, less water.
don't really know where the water goes.

ameer is seriously fishing now

ameer: hehe. ameer hensem tak kak ani?

kak ani: hensem :p


at kuala sg baru. ery's wedding

me, my bestie; aida and her singaporean cousin

a trip to langkawi

upon arrived at the island, we headed to kilim geo forest park to do some activities which were firstly, fish-watching in cages....secondly, eagle feeding...next, boat riding to the open sea...finally, we went to the bat's cave...sadly, we couldn't able to sight-seeing at mat cincang mountain due to the weather...it was raining in the afternoon therefore, the cable car had to stop it's operation...so did island hopping...frustrated...luckily some of us able to go to kilim and experience the boat riding which i really loved and fully enjoyed... :)

in the boat with cikgu zul


our boat...(courtesy to kak eli)


our dinner...look at the food...yummy!


the restaurant where we had our dinner

self captured at Lang Square...went to the square after dinner with the gstt's

ida was superb!! you are...a good driver ;)

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let's celebrate

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