Sunday, February 27, 2011

them

N,

she's my best friend in secondary. we lost contact right after SPM and met a couple of years then. lost contact again and we met again in 2009 at our friend's wedding. what a blissful. since then we contacting and updating about each others. once she'd been silent for months and i wonder was she in trouble? she WAS. by following the status in Facebook, i knew what had happened to her. she's in process to divorce and needed to clarify things upon it. the reason of it was her husband had coincidentally uttered phrases which made the tie became untie. the young male judge, upon hearing their case...he was sweating...looking regretful...and was being reluctant to give decision. and the talak jatuh satu! now, being a wife and husband again, she faces the same scenario...nothing much changed, according to her he's been acting normal (though he feels guilty...i hope!) i pray that she's able to be patient in facing the hardships! luv you N.



Aunt R,

my youngest and beloved aunt. the ex-husband...was full of jealousy and would demand her not to talk to other men in any condition (could it be for a semi-gov officer who needed to have discussions, meetings etc nowadays?) i know, in Islam wives must be blessed by husbands in anything they do and anywhere they go. this to ensure the wives would not be reprimanded by ALLAH taala of the wrongdoings/sins done. according to her, she'd followed his ridiculous demands even though it did create some unpleasant feelings in her colleagues and herself too. unfortunately after ten years of marriage, they got divorce because the husband claimed that she'd disloyal to him. at first, she couldn't accept this and cried nearly a month. she'd told me the reason he left; he claimed she was having an affair, and i consoled her to accept the it. on the second months, she was told by her ex-sister-in-law that her ex got married three weeks after they been divorce!!! what a great news! now, instead of crying her fate, she becomes tough and is trying to catch up her life again and again. i pray that my aunt will be able to live her life alone without the absence of a husband who (in future) will make her in depressed again. luv u aunt!




En AHT,

one of my matured male friends. we met in 2007. since then we texting each other and i was enjoying his messages, jokes, songs, advices etc. one thing i learnt about him was he seemed obsess in doing outdoor activities, lecturing and many more. in conclusion, he likes knowledge. last year, he'd sms me questions which i didn't understand why he sent it to me if he wanted to ask someone else? i answered him that he should ask the person, not me therefore he was silent for months. i told my other male friend about it, he laughed at me and said that the questions were meant for me! dang me! what a humpty dumpty me!!! oh my GOD! this was the second time! the first time he confessed his feeling, i was angry because to me this shouldn't happen. (but days later, i smiled and felt happy!!?...GOD what happened to me?). maybe it was my fault too, in every action i took which made him to fall in love again with someone else than her loving wife. i didn't have any intention in doing so. i do like him but i was admiring his fatherhood. to me, he's a good father to his children (compared to mine) and perhaps a good grandfather to his grandson too. others told me that he likes to flirt which i think it's true (sorry!) but i am certain that he's not as bad as they mentioned. due to his extrovert personality, people may have misunderstand on him. today, we meet, have a chat and watch a movie together. he looks pitiful (unhappy with current situation i guess) to me but i know that he is gaining his strength and able to live his life back to normal. i pray that you will find your true joy. luv u

*i quote u "U like me...but u don't want me..that the problem..hik hik hik"

Friday, February 25, 2011

i wonder

i wonder
are you one of my friends?
i wonder
do you think i am one of your friends?
i wonder
why did you ignore me after you succeed?
i wonder
do you still recognise me as your friend?
i wonder
were you taking advantage on me?
i wonder
should i hate you because of your ignorance?
i wonder
should i ignore you as you did to me?
i wonder
should i speak up to you
on the matter that you've forgotten?
i wonder
am i brave enough to speak up to you?
i wonder
what should i do when i see you,
where should i be if we are at the same place,
whom should i consult to talk about this,
how should i react if you approach me,
and when will you able to make things clear?
i wonder